My name is Elizabeth Herrera and I have a problem being honest and open with my mate. We've been together going on 10 years and I still keep secrets from him when it involves our finances. Because of that we've lost it ALL! I take full responsibility but what I don't understand is why I'm so afraid of being honest with him. I DO love him and I would've loved to marry him but I'm damaged goods. He deserves better than what I can give him. I feel like I've failed my children because of almost causing them to be out on the streets. My children are my world! That's what sickens me most is knowing how close I came to my babies not having a roof over their heads. I don't blame my mate for hating me and not trusting me. I hate myself. I'm trying to get to a place where I can forgive myself but I'm not sure where to start. I doubt anyone will read this but I had to let it out. I'm not looking for pity or anything like that, I just hate being like this. It's been 10 years and I have single handedly made us not have at least 1 year of happiness. I need to let go of what he's done in the past and move on. I need serious help, meds and prayer...about to face the music...